Saturday, May 15, 2010

The Significance of Time

Yesterday as I was waiting to go and babysit for my cousin Lindsey, I realized how much time is in a day. I had a few things to do but not enough to make me feel like I got a ton accomplished. I felt like I had all the time in the world to do whatever I wanted and I did do some really productive things, then again I feel like I wasted a lot of time. It made me reflect on how much time I waste everyday. There are things in our lives that are time wasters and we spend so much time worrying about those "time wasters" that don't even matter. Some time wasters in my life, sleeping, face booking, arguing with someone, surfing the web, checking my email, checking my face book 7 more times before I get off the computer, and there is a variety of many more. I have decided that I am going to make a conscience effort to try and use my time more wisely and try and accomplish all I would like to get done and more. It never hurts to serve someone if you don't know what else to do.
K I'm going to be honest, I don't know if the first half of that made sense but it's okay because the next part should be a little better... (it's late okay?)

Also, another interesting look at time and how quickly it comes and goes. This week I made a goal to visit each of my grandparents and I did it! I had lovely visits with each of them and realized that I have such unique relationships with all my grandparents and I am thankful for them all. Talking with my grandpa about my Grandma Helen and realizing how much he misses her was absolutely heartbreaking! If there is one thing that is going to suck the worst about getting old, it would be being alone for sure. It has been 10 years now since my grandma died and my grandpa is looking forward to being with her again soon. As he was telling me about their love story while he was in the war and about how they would write love letters to each other quite often, but it wasn't too bad because there was always a response. Then he said how it has been hard the last 10 years because he feels like he has been writing love letters to her but she never responds. I'm sure there are times my grandpa can feel my grandma's love because I feel it every time I go to their house. When my grandma died she was in her late 70's and had had been fighting cancer for awhile, so it was apparent her time was soon. We were all still heartbroken but it was bound to happen. About a year ago the Kamas Valley lost 3 young parents. Teresa Adlard, Dan Howells, and Jeremy Kunz. This was a really hard time for the Valley because no one knew why all of these perfectly healthy 30-40 yr. olds had to pass away, all so unexpectedly. They were all fine health wise and passed in two different accidents and then in sleep. Sometimes in life we don't understand why certain things happen, they just do. I have found that when I look at the bigger picture it helps me understand that sometimes everything that happens in life doesn't always make sense, but we need to remember that our Heavenly Father has a plan for each of us and he can see the bigger picture. Look to him and ask for help to be able to look at the bigger picture and it helps in times of distress and grief. I am thankful for my trials and the lessons I learn from them. Life isn't cut out to be a cake walk, we are all supposed to be challenged, we are here to be tested so we can return to the presence of god.
Well that's all for now...

Love you all!
Merilee

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