Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Mormon Message - God's Love is Perfect
This Mormon Message has helped me through the past few months. I love these Mormon Messages. They are great. I discovered how great they are this summer, living with my second family the Sharps. :)
Monday, December 20, 2010
So much to be grateful for
As Christmas is approaching the end of this week and the New Year next week, and I've had some time to relax, I find myself reflecting on this past year. This last year has been probably the best year of my life, but the hardest year of my life all at once. The best because I have learned so much about myself and I have had some pretty amazing experiences along the way. The hardest because I have had to face some of the hardest challenges of my life so far. With the help of my savior I have healed. I am still healing and probably will still be healing for a long time but I am grateful for the understanding that my savior has a plan for me. If there is anything that I have had to learn more than the fact that the lord is mindful of my prayers and if I have faith that he has a plan for me and I trust in that, everything will work out. Throughout this year and the many experiences I have had, I have learned that God really does know what's best for us, because he did in fact create us and he knows us better than we know ourselves. I have found through this challenging time of life that it has been very difficult for me to look at the positive side. It's very easy to get down and to focus on the negative things. I am doing my best to try and forget myself and serve and to remember how blessed I am and I have honestly been better this past week, but it can be challenging. We have so much to be grateful for. Throughout this year I have come to be grateful for a variety of different things. Grateful for the knowledge that everything happens for the reason, and that there is a plan for me and for each of us. I'm grateful for the support of so many great friends and for a couple of my sisters. I'm grateful for the fact that waking up every morning, it is a new day. I'm grateful that I can communicate with my father in heaven whenever, wherever and however much I want, and he WILL listen. In fact, he is the best listener I can think of. I have been blessed and I'm grateful. I know that someday this will all make sense but as for right now I just need to be patient. If there is anything the lord has tried to teach me this year, it has got to be patience. I know that there is a point in testing my patience and it has seemed to be the theme of my year so there must be a reason. I have faith that some day this will all make sense, and it may not be in this life but it will eventually make sense. Well those are my thoughts for now.
To be continued...
To be continued...
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Life Goes On
Well, well, well...
Life the past few weeks has been a bit rough, between stressing over school and going through some heartbreak and some other things. I'm learning a lot of lessons but it has been difficult to stay positive and remind myself to learn something from such a painful experience. As I have pondered about my feelings and really just about how life is hard, not only for me but for everyone really. I've always loved the quote, "I didn't say it would be easy, but I said it would be worth it." I know that it is going to be worth it in the end. Sometimes in the process of reaching a goal it can be very difficult not to be blinded by the heartache and the disappointment, especially when it ends in such a positive and loving way. Sometimes it seems like it would just be easier to have it end badly so you could just hate and resent them and be able to move on faster but I am grateful that it happened in such a tactful way and that he was very gentle about it, it's just hard that I can't be angry about it. I'm not angry, just hurt. It's hard to look at the positive side when you don't really understand why it had to happen and understand all the why's and what if's, but I am learning that the lord is trying to teach me, yet again, to trust in him. I'm realizing that I cannot do this alone, that as much as I don't want to rely on others and the lord, I have to. My roommates and family have been such a great support to me and I appreciate them in my life. Sometimes when you feel like no one understands how you're feeling, we have to remember the atonement and the fact that Christ suffered for "all pains" not just sin but heartbreak, disappointment, confusion, saddness, everything. It doesn't matter what words of comfort someone offers you, no one will be able to completely understand what we are going through in our lives. Sometimes people have had similar experiences and can relate in some way or another, but when it really comes down to our different challenges and trials, everyone experiences them differently and everyone has their own heart so no one knows EXACTLY how you feel, except the savior. That's why we are counseled to "turn to him" because he suffered all those pains for us and he does understand what we are going through. I guess I've never really looked at the atonement from that aspect until I was sitting in my institute class other day and we were talking about how the atonement has to do with every aspect in our lives. So as I have been feeling bad and sad about everything that happened I have realized that it's okay that I am feeling that way right now, and if I wasn't feeling this way it wouldn't be right because I really did love him and I really am heartbroken. Sometimes we don't understand why certain things in our lives have to happen and the timing of all of it, but keeping the focus and outlook that it will all make sense someday and that god has a plan for all of us, that everything will work out in time. Thinking about life and everyone and thier different challenges it hit me the other day that things like this happen everyday. On a really great day that I'm having, just thinking that someone got their heart broken just like I did in that same day. Or like in the same day I had my heart broken, worse things happen, someone maybe lost a mother, or a child, or a couple got divorced, ect. Sometimes when we are going through trials we get so caught up in our pain and how hard life is for us and if we can just step back and look at the lives of people around us and realize that life isn't "easy" for anyone. Everyone is here doing the best they can and we just need to support eachother throughout this life. Life is full of important choices and important lessons and if we can just remember to learn from our trials, learn from our mistakes, and be grateful for all of those things in our lives good and bad, then we can go about life in such a different light and find "joy in the journey" even in hard times. I've always loved the quote by President Monson, "The past is behind, learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, live it." If we can do that then we will be blessed and we will be so much happier in our lives. We have so much to be grateful for in this life and yeah sometimes it can be challenging, but that's life. We learn throught the hard times. So come with me and take the challenge to truly "find joy in the journey" and not let the crappy things in life get us down. Chin up and be happy, even if it is hard. :)
M
Life the past few weeks has been a bit rough, between stressing over school and going through some heartbreak and some other things. I'm learning a lot of lessons but it has been difficult to stay positive and remind myself to learn something from such a painful experience. As I have pondered about my feelings and really just about how life is hard, not only for me but for everyone really. I've always loved the quote, "I didn't say it would be easy, but I said it would be worth it." I know that it is going to be worth it in the end. Sometimes in the process of reaching a goal it can be very difficult not to be blinded by the heartache and the disappointment, especially when it ends in such a positive and loving way. Sometimes it seems like it would just be easier to have it end badly so you could just hate and resent them and be able to move on faster but I am grateful that it happened in such a tactful way and that he was very gentle about it, it's just hard that I can't be angry about it. I'm not angry, just hurt. It's hard to look at the positive side when you don't really understand why it had to happen and understand all the why's and what if's, but I am learning that the lord is trying to teach me, yet again, to trust in him. I'm realizing that I cannot do this alone, that as much as I don't want to rely on others and the lord, I have to. My roommates and family have been such a great support to me and I appreciate them in my life. Sometimes when you feel like no one understands how you're feeling, we have to remember the atonement and the fact that Christ suffered for "all pains" not just sin but heartbreak, disappointment, confusion, saddness, everything. It doesn't matter what words of comfort someone offers you, no one will be able to completely understand what we are going through in our lives. Sometimes people have had similar experiences and can relate in some way or another, but when it really comes down to our different challenges and trials, everyone experiences them differently and everyone has their own heart so no one knows EXACTLY how you feel, except the savior. That's why we are counseled to "turn to him" because he suffered all those pains for us and he does understand what we are going through. I guess I've never really looked at the atonement from that aspect until I was sitting in my institute class other day and we were talking about how the atonement has to do with every aspect in our lives. So as I have been feeling bad and sad about everything that happened I have realized that it's okay that I am feeling that way right now, and if I wasn't feeling this way it wouldn't be right because I really did love him and I really am heartbroken. Sometimes we don't understand why certain things in our lives have to happen and the timing of all of it, but keeping the focus and outlook that it will all make sense someday and that god has a plan for all of us, that everything will work out in time. Thinking about life and everyone and thier different challenges it hit me the other day that things like this happen everyday. On a really great day that I'm having, just thinking that someone got their heart broken just like I did in that same day. Or like in the same day I had my heart broken, worse things happen, someone maybe lost a mother, or a child, or a couple got divorced, ect. Sometimes when we are going through trials we get so caught up in our pain and how hard life is for us and if we can just step back and look at the lives of people around us and realize that life isn't "easy" for anyone. Everyone is here doing the best they can and we just need to support eachother throughout this life. Life is full of important choices and important lessons and if we can just remember to learn from our trials, learn from our mistakes, and be grateful for all of those things in our lives good and bad, then we can go about life in such a different light and find "joy in the journey" even in hard times. I've always loved the quote by President Monson, "The past is behind, learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, live it." If we can do that then we will be blessed and we will be so much happier in our lives. We have so much to be grateful for in this life and yeah sometimes it can be challenging, but that's life. We learn throught the hard times. So come with me and take the challenge to truly "find joy in the journey" and not let the crappy things in life get us down. Chin up and be happy, even if it is hard. :)
M
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Update
Okay okay so I know it has been far too long since I have written a post but I have been busy and just kind of wrapped up in the whole life thing. So this summer I had the chance to live in California with my wonderful sister Melanie and her cute family. At first, everything was kind of falling through and I wasn't sure how I would be able to swing spending a summer in California with no job but as I fasted and prayed about what to do I felt like I was still supposed to go to California even though nothing seemed to be working out. So I exercised faith that everything would work out and I did my best to put it in the lord's hands. Well sure enough the next job I applied for I basically got hired when they glanced at my application and everything seemed to start falling into place. Melanie made arrangements for me to move in and my job training was a couple weeks after I got out there.
So as soon as I got settled in, the first 2 weeks were lonely. I had to wait for my training to start so I had no friends and I was just staying home all day everyday so I was going crazy. Well at church that next Sunday Melanie introduced me to my first friend Samantha and then I started feeling good about life. I had one more week before I started training so Sam let me tag along and meet all of her friends and life was going well.
As soon as my job training started I started getting busy really fast. So I met a friend at my first day of training and he found out that I was a member of the church and started asking questions about the church and my beliefs and we became friends. It was nice to have someone there that accepted me because it seemed like as soon as everyone found out that I was the Mormon girl from Utah, I felt pretty alone and stuck out like a sore thumb. So things progressed with our conversation and I invited him to learn more and to come over and have dinner with the family and I had the chance to give him a Book of Mormon with my testimony written in it. It was an amazing opportunity for me. Something that I had never experienced in my life. So I invited him to go to a Volleyball night with my singles ward. I had so much fun and I met a lot of amazing people including a man that swept me off my feet and it all started with complementing his cool Nike shirt. So from that night forward my summer consisted of working all day everyday at the pool, and dating an amazing man, and all of this went down in California. Did I have the best summer ever? You guessed it, YEPP!
So as for now I'm back down at SUU for the moment and enjoying life or at least trying to. It has been an emotional rollercoaster that's for sure and I'm so lucky to live with my amazing roommates. I got a job this year so I'm working at the Financial Aid desk on campus and I really enjoy my co-workers. It's been a bit of a challenge to try and balance school, work, relationships, and just everything but it has been an interesting journey trying to figure it all out. I'm getting good grades and some sleep so life is good. I'm really going to try and write on my blog more so just be patient with me. :)
Mer
So as soon as I got settled in, the first 2 weeks were lonely. I had to wait for my training to start so I had no friends and I was just staying home all day everyday so I was going crazy. Well at church that next Sunday Melanie introduced me to my first friend Samantha and then I started feeling good about life. I had one more week before I started training so Sam let me tag along and meet all of her friends and life was going well.
As soon as my job training started I started getting busy really fast. So I met a friend at my first day of training and he found out that I was a member of the church and started asking questions about the church and my beliefs and we became friends. It was nice to have someone there that accepted me because it seemed like as soon as everyone found out that I was the Mormon girl from Utah, I felt pretty alone and stuck out like a sore thumb. So things progressed with our conversation and I invited him to learn more and to come over and have dinner with the family and I had the chance to give him a Book of Mormon with my testimony written in it. It was an amazing opportunity for me. Something that I had never experienced in my life. So I invited him to go to a Volleyball night with my singles ward. I had so much fun and I met a lot of amazing people including a man that swept me off my feet and it all started with complementing his cool Nike shirt. So from that night forward my summer consisted of working all day everyday at the pool, and dating an amazing man, and all of this went down in California. Did I have the best summer ever? You guessed it, YEPP!
So as for now I'm back down at SUU for the moment and enjoying life or at least trying to. It has been an emotional rollercoaster that's for sure and I'm so lucky to live with my amazing roommates. I got a job this year so I'm working at the Financial Aid desk on campus and I really enjoy my co-workers. It's been a bit of a challenge to try and balance school, work, relationships, and just everything but it has been an interesting journey trying to figure it all out. I'm getting good grades and some sleep so life is good. I'm really going to try and write on my blog more so just be patient with me. :)
Mer
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